Part3

"Sharing the secret of ancient mystery school of enlightenment...continue."




(I can share what I can from my own experience and understanding of my consciousness and some I cannot. Because I don’t know it all, I just know some of it. It is from my own point of perspective only!)

* From beginning, my only desire is to search for power. I was like everyone else that fascinated with super power or power of mind. It would be fun and cool and make my life easier and happier if I know the secret power of the universe, I would have it all. I would be very happy man in the world :-)
* I had no idea about what miracle is but I hope it exist but I didn’t really know how, except to believe on faith, there must be the way, somewhere and somehow.
* The more I yearn to know the truth knowledge of the universe intensely day and night. Nothing else, except this only. So I attract to this spiritual master and teaching.
* This is the path of warrior and very intense with strong discipline and mastery. It is the path of power and manifestation. The good thing about this path is you can progress very fast and quick with strong will, determination and energy.
* And the worst part is you cannot live normally as another human being. You cannot communicate with normal people in society. Normal people would not understand you and might judge you as being crazy because you don’t look after your physical body and your mind is so strong and intense and deeply calm.
* Because after long period of training, your energy is so high and your consciousness is so strong. And whatever you desire or think, become reality so quick and fast! It is like you are yearning for a million dollars and then one day you have that million dollars and your mind go wild and crazy with dynamic energy.
* You know too much about the illusion of the universe and sometimes make you gone crazy and nuts for some period of time.
* You must sacrifice time, and energy in the discipline day and night with non-stop. You must choose between family (father, mother, brother, sister and relative) or spiritual enlightenment. This make student feel pain and suffering to choose one of them.
* If student choose to live as normal human being (eating, sleeping, having sex, gossiping, watching TV, listening music,...etc.) then student cannot do the spiritual training.
* Each student must choose and make his/her own decision whether this lifetime for spiritual growth only or material world only. And some want to choose both worlds, spiritually and materially. Mostly student who choose both world, cannot function well in society because they are so powerful and very highly successful man/woman and average people would not understand him/her.
* After that, each student must learn to accept his/her own decision and choice and be calm and at perfect peace with it. If you want something, YOU MUST sacrifice and give up something to get it! This is a painful and suffering journey that I have been through in the past few years and eventually I have to learn to accept my own decision after long period of painful sufferings.
* The strength of decision is to give up the family and give up physical body completely. To give up the pleasure of physical life in eating, drinking or having sex. To face the unknown that I had no idea what will happen. There is 2 choices, I would get what I intend or DEATH. I must learn to be death while still living. When decision made, there is no point of returning. There is the forward and no backward!!! No regret or self pity but accept decision at peace and calm.